Starting this blog has been weighing on my mind for some time. However, insecurity, fear, and other issues have kept me from pursuing this path. It has taken me a few years to overcome these feelings enough to start this adventure. To know why this emotional change occurred it would be beneficial to explain what has been going on with my wife and I over the past several years.
We started trying to have a child a little over two years ago. In the beginning of our marriage it wasn’t something we thought about often, that is, until we had, what some may refer to as, a “scare.” There was a lot of emotions that cascaded through us during that time.
Are we prepared for a child?
Can we afford this?
How are we going to finish school?
These were just a few of the questions that were floating around in our minds. Soon, though, our feelings of uncertainty were replaced with pure joy. Then joy was turned into disappointment when the pregnancy test came back negative. Disappointment turned into a mix of fear and depression as each month brought that taunting one pink line (not pregnant).
Two long years passed and God had still not blessed us with a precious gift. Seeing so many others around us having families and posting pictures of their kids has been extremely difficult. Not saying we are unhappy for their blessings, it is just a piercing reminder of our infertility. While dealing with infertility has been a tantalizing struggle for me, it has impacted my wife on a much deeper level, causing her to go through a darkness that I may never comprehend.
At the beginning of this year, 2016, we began infertility treatments and are cautiously optimistic that a child may be coming soon. This realization, as well as the agonizing two years of waiting, has made me stop to question what kind of father I want to become.
How will I teach my kids to love and serve the Lord?
How will I live out my faith as well as mentor them as they strive to stand on their own faith?
How will I spark a desire for wisdom that burns deep inside of them?
These and many more questions have been on my mind for the past several years.
This blog is my attempt to answer those many questions that plague my mind and learn how to become a better father, husband, pastor, friend, and servant of Christ. Since God is the perfect example of a strong loving father, as well as a nurturing mother, then what better ambition is there then to strive to become Men After God’s Own Heart?
I pray that what is posted on this blog will help to strengthen your faith, encourage you to model a servant’s heart, helps you grow in wisdom and knowledge, and motivate you to become a man after God’s own heart.
We started trying to have a child a little over two years ago. In the beginning of our marriage it wasn’t something we thought about often, that is, until we had, what some may refer to as, a “scare.” There was a lot of emotions that cascaded through us during that time.
Are we prepared for a child?
Can we afford this?
How are we going to finish school?
These were just a few of the questions that were floating around in our minds. Soon, though, our feelings of uncertainty were replaced with pure joy. Then joy was turned into disappointment when the pregnancy test came back negative. Disappointment turned into a mix of fear and depression as each month brought that taunting one pink line (not pregnant).
Two long years passed and God had still not blessed us with a precious gift. Seeing so many others around us having families and posting pictures of their kids has been extremely difficult. Not saying we are unhappy for their blessings, it is just a piercing reminder of our infertility. While dealing with infertility has been a tantalizing struggle for me, it has impacted my wife on a much deeper level, causing her to go through a darkness that I may never comprehend.
At the beginning of this year, 2016, we began infertility treatments and are cautiously optimistic that a child may be coming soon. This realization, as well as the agonizing two years of waiting, has made me stop to question what kind of father I want to become.
How will I teach my kids to love and serve the Lord?
How will I live out my faith as well as mentor them as they strive to stand on their own faith?
How will I spark a desire for wisdom that burns deep inside of them?
These and many more questions have been on my mind for the past several years.
This blog is my attempt to answer those many questions that plague my mind and learn how to become a better father, husband, pastor, friend, and servant of Christ. Since God is the perfect example of a strong loving father, as well as a nurturing mother, then what better ambition is there then to strive to become Men After God’s Own Heart?
I pray that what is posted on this blog will help to strengthen your faith, encourage you to model a servant’s heart, helps you grow in wisdom and knowledge, and motivate you to become a man after God’s own heart.